Friday, October 4th, 2002
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8:29 am
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i'm the happiest girl alive!
i was just walking down the hall,
and i saw joe brewer (my little bitty freshman buddy)
holding hands with this cute girl named jaime.
AWWWW.
it was so cute.
i'm full of smiles.
and i can't wait to see dan!!!
current mood:  excited
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Thursday, October 3rd, 2002
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8:43 am
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today is official shannon and vanessa day.
i can't fucking wait.
hopefully amanda can join us!
i'm really happy today.
i love good moods.
and i have really good hair today, too!
current mood: chipper
current music: there is no music in school.
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Wednesday, October 2nd, 2002
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3:21 pm
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attention shannon bishop:
call me tonight you hottie boom a lottie!
current mood: gotta pee!
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Tuesday, October 1st, 2002
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3:17 pm
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i wish i could always say what i thought,
without having to worry about offending someone,
or getting in trouble.
more than that, though, i wish i didn't think negative thoughts
about anything.
i'm really working on that.
i'm listening to a song that should make me sad,
but instead it just kinda makes me happy.
(most of the time i wish there was just two people in this world: you and me.)
i don't have anything to say.
current mood:  restless
current music: sway - bic runga.
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Monday, September 30th, 2002
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10:55 pm
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HEY DAN.
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING.
YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING.
YOU MAKE ME HAPPY,
AND YOU MAKE ME NOT WANT TO LET GO OF YOU...
EVER.
GO CHECK YOUR EMAIL.
I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY.
YOU ARE THE BESTEST.
<3 <3 <3
you know.
the beatles said it best.
la la la la
life goes on.
i really want to be a different vanessa tomorrow.
im making no promises.
but i will make effort.
i poked myself in the eye,
and its bleeding.
i hope i dont go blind.
i kinda like school this year.
minus english class, it's all good.
all a's, and a few b's make me happy.
i like deserving what i earn.
the freshman this year make me not want to graduate.
i'm really going to miss my new friends.
i've met some really great kids this year.
i'm going to be sad to leave them behind,
but i hate my graduating class.
i told joe paquette that i was just gonna fail the next 4 years
so i can graduate with the class of '06.
it was a nice thought at least.
i dont even like livejournal.
i dont know why i write in here.
gagh.
current mood:  tired
current music: pillow talk.
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6:01 pm
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Sunday, September 29th, 2002
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9:08 pm - I'm now huffing gas and sniffing paint, to take away this buzz that i call you.
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i just re-fell in love with the alkaline trio.
current mood: in love (with alkaline trio).
current music: maybe i'll catch fire - alkaline trio.
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2:09 pm
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by the way,
if you've never seen 'eyes wide shut',
starring tom cruise and nicole kidman,
i recommend you do so.
i stayed up for three hours watching it last night,
and it was well worth it.
a little weird, and there were a lot of boobs in it,
but it was really fucking cool.
i'm going to take a long nap now.
goodnight.
current mood: my feet are asleep.
current music: i melt with you - saves the day.
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1:16 pm
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what a great night i had!
thanks dan and my friends.
i love you guys :)
current mood: pleased
current music: falling for you - weezer.
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Friday, September 27th, 2002
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8:28 am
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i went to bed at 6:30 p.m. last night, while most seniors didn't even get home til 6:30 a.m..
i rock.
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Thursday, September 26th, 2002
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3:30 pm
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courtney hurt is my saviour.
thank you for the dress.
i love you too much.
homecoming is on!
got my tickets.
got my plans.
got my friends.
got my date.
eh. i'm bailing out on the whole "senior fun night", tonight.
which is really just trashing the school (gay).
i'd much rather sleep anyway!
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Wednesday, September 25th, 2002
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9:23 pm
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sometimes i feel really stressed out and upset for no reason and i just want to cry, but i think that is perfectly normal conscidering that i am a seventeen year old, menstruating female.
current mood: all of the above.
current music: shine on you crazy diamond - pink floyd.
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Tuesday, September 24th, 2002
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10:27 pm - you have broken every heart of every friend you've ever had.
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i made two new livejournals, i just don't know which one to use. when i figure that out, i'll post it in this motherfucker.
current mood: complacent
current music: overwhelming - everclear.
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9:58 pm
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(why are you so good to me?)
current mood: i love you.
current music: the anniversary.
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8:28 am
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today i was told that i look like a "mangey cat".
f u, man. washing my hair takes too much work!
i miss dan really bad today :(
current mood: mangey cat-ish.
current music: the sub talking.
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Sunday, September 22nd, 2002
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8:26 pm - one year, one month, one week, and counting.
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me: "you know what i like about you?"
him: "what?"
me: "you never make me sad."
current mood: happy, but sleepy.
current music: i've been thinking good, good, things about you!
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1:27 am - dear dan:
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(i hope tonight i made you see
that there is no getting bored of dan garvey for me!)
current mood: uh yeah, excited for bandorama
current music: no lies, just love - bright eyes.
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Saturday, September 21st, 2002
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1:19 pm
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I don't care if it hurts,
I want to have control.
I want a perfect body,
I want a perfect soul.
I want you to notice,
when I'm not around.
You're so fucking special,
I wish I was special.
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?.
I don't belong here
current mood: none, or other.
current music: creep - radiohead.
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Thursday, September 19th, 2002
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7:52 pm
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quick update: i don't talk to matt (aka my dad anymore), i don't really care about livejournal anymore (!), and i sleep far too much for my own good. now, fill this out. i'm actually interested.
1. What is my full name?
2. When is my birthday?
3. What color are my eyes?
4. Do i smell good?
5. Am i a fun person to hang out with?
6. If i were a fruit what would i be and why?
7. What T.V./movie character do i remind you of and why?
8. Am i orginal or just like everyone else?
9. Am i a leader or a follower?
10. Am i nice or mean?
~*~*~~*~*~OPPOSITE SEX ONLY QUESTIONS~*~*~~*~*~
1. Have you ever liked me in a more than friend way?
2. Have you ever had a dream about me?
3. What happened in that dream?
4. Would you ever kiss me?
4b. If you have kissed me would you do it again?
5. Am i bangable?
6. Am i attractive?
7. Sexy or Cute?
9. What do you like about me (physical)?
10. What do you like about my personality?
11. If we were to go on a date what would we do?
12. Do you think of me off-line?
13. Would u ever consider being my boy/girl friend?
14. Do u or have u ever had a crush on me? (be specific on which one)
~*~*~*~*~*~EVERYONE AGAIN~*~*~~*~*~*~
1. Am i shallow?
2. If there is one thing you change about me what would it be?
3. Have i ever touched your life?
4. What is one memory of us that you will NEVER forget?
5. What song remind you of me?
6. Do we have inside jokes....if so whats your favorite?
7. Do you think i will ever get married?
8. Who do you think i will marry?
9. What could you picture me doing in the future?
10. Do you think i am a virgin?
11. If you could give me a present what would it be?
12. Do you wish we were closer?
13. What was your first impression of me?
14. Sum me up in ONE word?
current mood: awake
current music: fan buzzing.
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Monday, September 9th, 2002
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10:17 pm
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sometimes. i. just. don't. know.
i'm sick of being a teenager. i'm sick of the way that every single girl i know talks about other girls behind their back. i hate how if you talk about me behind my back, that's fine, but if i talk about you, it's some big fucking deal. i'm a fucking seventeen year old girl. gossip is pretty much my middle name. i'm sick of being involved. in. everything. i wish it could just be fine withe veryone. where i wouldn't have to worry about trust and who my friends are. the.only.time.i.ever.talk.about.someone.behind.their.back.is.if.they.give.me.reason.to. and i'm sick of having people who give me reason to. i can't wait until i'm out of high school and i don't have to worry about the cruel politics of high school. i won't have to worry about impressing anyone, or making anyone like me. i try to be nice to everyone. i try to have good karma, and even that's not good for some people. i'm done with it. i just don't care, honestly. if you're gonna talk shit, than you better be ready to take it back in. itjusthappens. 'friends' do that. i haven't met any group of 'friends' yet who don't do it, and i've been looking my whole life. so do me a favor, and if you find a 'friend' who doesn't talk shit and gossip, give me their number.
and if i don't return your phonecalls, if you ever make them, you know why.
(ilovejeremydamaske,though).
everything is so dramatic. and it's really fucking stupid. i have to think and feel so much more than a normal teenager does, just because i want everyone to like me. fuck that. know me, and don't like me. i'm not putting on a charade. it's over, okay?
and i hate livejournal for this reason. all it does is start drama. every.single.bit.of.drama.in.my.life.revolves.around.good.old.LJ.
it takes twenty one days to make or break a habit. i'll be writing elsewhere. if you are REALLY interested, contact me. otherwise, here's to fucking twenty one days.
current mood:  pissed off
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